Tuesday, March 27, 2007

No sleep for me

Saturday night saw the start of an annual sleepover that I run. 43 young people from Rock Solid, Mettle and Summer Camp arrived, all hyper and ready to keep me awake! It was an excellent weekend even though all quiet wasn't met until 4.15am! Then they decided to wake up at 7am!!
The really noisy ones were the 14 - 16 year old GIRLS of course. I think that I shall only do this once a year as I am getting too old for this now and my back is now hurting after missing my bed :(
We looked at Stop the Traffik and had the theme amazing grace over the weekend. We took part of the Sunday morning church service with a drama, prayers and a testimony. I think it all went down well with the congregation.
Although I moan about it, I really do love providing these things for the young people.

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

An early start

I got up this morning at 4.45am to travel to head office at Halesowen, Birmingham for a Personal Support day. Personal Support is the way that my salary is paid in Youth for Christ. I have to raise 50% of my salary and salary costs and head office is committed to raising the other 50%. The way that I raise my 50% is to ask individuals, churches and organisations to give a gift each month through standing order.
I have a loyal group giving anything from £5 to £70 a month to Youth for Christ and think that they are WONDERFUL. Without them this ministry would cease!
So today, I am writing to thank them all for their commitment, and seeking new people to give.
I have to raise a further £90 a month so I am praying that this will be acheived through my efforts today.
For those who are interested, I should be home by 9pm tonight if the traffic is good. Long day.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Losing something special

Go now if your easily upset!

I had serious pains one month (at that time of month! sorry guys) and had decided to call nhs direct. After taking advice to get a pregnancy kit, I found out that I was indeed pregnant. Well a joyous husband was a concern as I new I had been bleeding for 11 days on and off. I called the doctors surgery who wanted me to go around straight away.
Mixed emotions followed as I tried to get my head around all the possibilities. I sat in the doctors waiting room hoping that everything would be ok. As a mum of two already, I know what a blessing a child is and wanted this so much despite not planning this one.
While I sat in the waiting room, the pain increased, I doubled over and lost my baby in the waiting room in front of the other patients. All within one hour.
I did not want to move as the doctor and receptionist tried to help me through to the back as I knew what I was leaving behind on the chair for all to see.
I think that it has to go down in the worst experience I have had in such a short space of time.
I was three months gone and in a not so pretty way. I took it really bad.
I think that people don't understand that a grieving period must follow the loss of an unborn baby, just because you haven't met the child, doesn't make it more bearable.
We called the baby Josie and still miss what she could be like now. I look forward to meeting her.

If you know someone who has had this loss, please do not say the following. 'Well at least you didn't know the baby' 'You can always try again or have another one' 'At least you have two other children' Instead try saying that you don't understand but they must be hurting so I'll cook for you, bring it to your home and look after your family while you grieve. Thank you so much Nick and Diana for doing just that. x

What's a blog for

Last night I lay in bed and thought about my husbands blog page. He seems to get so much out of blogging (Is that the real term?) that I thought about how can I use my blog to more effect.

I then went through some of the things that have happened in my life over the years and how sometimes you need to get them off your chest. Maybe this is how? People don't always want to listen to your story when you try and tell it, they talk over you, don't hear what you are saying, change the subject... but I suppose I can tell my story here and if you want to read it great, and if not, I won't know about it so it won't hurt!

I think people need to tell their story sometimes as it is all part of understanding the way things are and getting it off your chest, healing etc. And in this busy life that I find myself in, I think this could be a good way of... well, just letting it all go.

So, I have decided that I will give it a try.

Sorry if things get heavy from here in, but you can always avoid this blog if you need to. Thanks for the push Warren.